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  “One o’clock, Iowa time,” I say. “I wonder what the kids are doing right this minute.”

  Chapter 19:

  Mrs. Oliver

  Mrs. Oliver looked closely at the man. Getting a clear picture of him wasn’t easy. He had a gray baseball cap pulled down low over his forehead. Little tufts of curly, dark brown hair poked out around his ears. He wore a black jacket zippered up to his chin and sleek leather gloves on his fingers. By the lines that seamed the corners of his blue eyes she figured he had to be at least in his early forties. He seemed overly concerned that two of the students were absent. Lily and Maria. Was one of them his target? If so, why didn’t he just leave to go in search of them instead of remaining in the classroom? Was he in too deeply now, feel that he had nothing to lose?

  P.J. was still staring unabashedly at the man and Mrs. Oliver had an inkling that P.J. might know the man, maybe had seen him before.

  She wondered briefly if this could actually be Bobby Latham, her former student, forcing her to sit still for an excruciating amount of time just as she had done to him all those years ago. But no. She and Bobby liked each other. Had come to an understanding. She promised to never tell him to face front ever again as long as he didn’t use the pages of his math book to make soggy spitballs that he shot through the barrel of his ink pen at the back of Kitty Rawlings’s head. No, this wasn’t Bobby Latham. Maybe it was another former student.

  In her mind she ran through the Filofax of children she had taught over the years. It couldn’t have been Walter Spanksi, the only student she had ever flunked. He would be in his fifties by now. How she had fretted over holding Walter back for another year of third grade. No matter how she had tried to help him learn his multiplication facts and how to read even the most basic of sentences, he just never caught on. She couldn’t very well send him on to fourth grade when he didn’t know a noun from a verb and consistently missed seventeen of the twenty words on the weekly spelling test. It had been her second year of teaching and she remembered vividly sitting in front of Mr. and Mrs. Spanksi, just three months pregnant with her second child, and informing them that Walter, while a very nice boy, would not move up to the fourth grade with his classmates. Mr. Spanksi held his hat in his large, earth-worn hands and pleaded with her to at least give him a chance. A lot could happen over the summer. They could work with him every day, get him a tutor. Mrs. Spanksi didn’t say a word, just cried noiselessly into her handkerchief. “I’m sorry, Mr. and Mrs. Spanksi,” Mrs. Oliver said, shaking her head. “I just cannot, in good conscience, promote Walter on to the fourth grade at his current skill level. I am confident that another year in third grade will be just the ticket to get him where he needs to be,” she said chirpily. Well, she had another year with Walter and, as it turned out, another year in third grade did him absolutely no good. Over the course of the additional nine months Mrs. Oliver had with Walter, she saw him transform from a nice boy to a very angry boy whose second shot at the third-grade curriculum showed no marked improvement. But the man with the gun was most definitely not Walter Spanksi, though she could clearly understand why he would be tempted to return to his old classroom where a twenty-three-year-old, second-year teacher had the gall to flunk him, and point a gun at her head. How very satisfying that might be. But Walter was too old to be this man.

  Over the years she had caught students cheating, fighting, smoking, stealing and many other offenses, but no one hated her. She prided herself in being fair-minded and compassionate; she learned there was so much more to a student than his or her grades. They were human beings, young and certainly not fully formed yet, but that was where she came in. She learned after that horrible second year with Walter that she had the power, no, the supremacy, to make a child learn, to want to learn. And in her forty-three years of being a teacher, there was only one other student, besides Walter, for whom she felt she failed to make a positive difference. Mrs. Oliver squinted, trying to see past the hat and gloves the man was wearing, the years that had passed. It could be him, she thought. There is that possibility.

  Kenny Bingley. He had been a weedy-looking child, tall with long legs and proportionally short arms. Like a sprig of big stem or turkey foot, as her mother had called the long, bland prairie grass that was abundant throughout their part of the state. It could certainly be Kenny Bingley. Right age—fortyish, brown hair, mean eyes. Kenny Bingley was perhaps the student whom she lost the most sleep over. He came to school tardy every day, if at all. A perpetual musty, wet smell clung to his pale skin as if his clothing was tossed into a corner and forgotten about until he needed to put them on. No matter the child, no matter where they came from, no matter their circumstances, Mrs. Oliver was always able to find a spark of wonder and curiosity in her students’ eyes. But in eight-year-old Kenny, above the blue smudges that shadowed his eyes, there was no flicker, no interest or amazement for the world. There was nothing. Just an eerie calm. He wasn’t disruptive in the classroom per se, but trouble seemed to follow him wherever he went. Recess football games ended in bloody noses, lunch money went missing, classroom pets died under suspicious circumstances. But there was nothing that she could actually pin specifically on Kenny. She suspected abuse at the hands of his mother; there were no bruises, no proof, just that air of detachment, his indifferent countenance.

  Two things happened the week Kenny was expelled. A horned lark was found on the school steps with both its legs snapped. Once again, Mrs. Oliver had absolutely no tangible proof that Kenny was the one who had mortally wounded the beautiful bird. But she had been the one to find it there on the school steps, its twig legs unnaturally splayed; she was the only one there to hear the ragged, high-pitched chirps, or so she thought.

  The second incident that occurred had to do with a pair of scissors and a very pretty third grader named Cornelia Patts. She had stepped into the hall for just a moment, wasn’t even actually all the way out of the room. The principal, Mr. Graczyk, had a question for her about some such thing or another, and had called her to the doorway. The next thing she knew, poor Cornelia was screaming and clutching at her bleeding hand. “He stabbed me,” she cried in disbelief. Mr. Graczyk ran into the classroom and yanked Kenny up out of his seat, the bloody scissors sitting on his desk in front of him. While Mrs. Oliver wrapped the wound in a clean handkerchief, the classroom was silent except for Cornelia’s soft sobs.

  As Kenny was led from the classroom by Mr. Graczyk he pressed his thin, pale lips together, his shoulders slumped like a bent reed, and whistled a high, distorted tune, so much like that of the lark she found languishing on the school’s steps.

  The man with the gun before her now could very possibly be Kenny Bingley. He had never returned to school after that day, was immediately expelled, and Mrs. Oliver never learned what became of him, though she often asked after him. She decided to test her theory and began whistling the dying lark’s song. Warbling and faint at first, then louder. The man, who had been sitting on the tall stool at the front of the room, the gun on his lap, looked back at her with his cold, flat eyes. “Kenny Bingley,” she said stringently. “You need to stop this nonsense right this minute.”

  Chapter 20:

  Meg

  There are shrieks from the crowd as a chair comes crashing through a window. I, along with the other officers present, unholster our firearms and we watch in amazement as a pink-clad shape tumbles out of the window. Immediately I know this is no gunman. It’s Gail Lowell, the elderly secretary at the school. She is coatless, wearing a bright pink sweater and chunky metallic jewelry. Her necklace and bracelets jingle gleefully as she picks her way carefully through the snow, her purse dangling from her arm. As she comes toward us, voices from the crowd pellet her. What’s going on? Are the kids okay? Is there a man with a gun?

  “How many intruders are there?” I ask in a low voice as she approaches. She appears to have been crying, but it’s hard to tell because of t
he snow. “Did you see someone with a gun? Any injuries?” Gail looks helplessly from me to Chief McKinney and then her face crumples.

  “It’s all my fault,” she sobs.

  “Gail, this is important. Tell us exactly what’s going on in there,” I say more sharply than I intend to.

  “Now, now, Gail,” McKinney tries to soothe her. “Are you injured?” Next to them I shuffle my feet and make soft, impatient sounds until McKinney glares at me.

  Gail snuffles loudly. “No, no. I’m not hurt.”

  “Let’s get you warmed up and then you can tell us what’s going on.” He leads her to a squad car with an idling engine, opens the door and gently guides her into the passenger’s seat. The chief climbs into the driver’s side and I settle into the backseat. For a moment the only sound is Gail’s soft cries and shivers. Chief McKinney fiddles with the heat and a whoosh of warm air floods the car.

  “Gail,” I say through the partition that separates the front and back seats, “I know how difficult this must be for you. How terrified you must be.” I look at the chief and he nods for me to continue. “We need to know just three things right now, then we can take you wherever you want to go. Okay?” She bobs her head up and down and presses her fingers to her eyelids. “First, is anyone injured inside?”

  Her chin wobbles. “I don’t know,” she says in a small voice. “I don’t know. He went off down the hallway and then he was gone.”

  “One intruder, Gail? Did you know him? Is that what you are saying? There was just one person? Young or old?” I ask, thinking of Dorothy Jones’s son, Blake.

  Gail closes her eyes and shakes her head as if trying to conjure up an image. “I didn’t recognize him. It was a man, just one. Forties maybe,” she says in a whisper.

  Chief McKinney and I look at each other in relief. At least we can assure Dorothy that her son isn’t the intruder and encourage her to get him the help he needs and fast.

  “I saw him come in,” Gail cries. “Oh, God, he walked right by the office window. He had on a tool belt. I thought he was going to work on the boiler—the thing is always breaking down and it’s so cold today. I didn’t even give it a second thought. He just walked right on by. Gave me a little wave.” A fresh round of sobs erupts and the chief pats her on the knee. “I should have noticed that he wasn’t dressed like a maintenance man. He was wearing dress shoes. Not work boots.” She pulls her hands from her eyes and her fingers are smudged with mascara. “Can I call my husband? Please?”

  “Good, Gail. You’re doing great. Just one more question for now and then we’re done.” I wait for her to nod before I continue. “Okay, one man. Did you recognize him?” She shakes her head. “Did he have a weapon? A gun, a knife, anything that you could see?”

  “I didn’t see it until he came back to the office. He locked us in and then waved like he was saying goodbye. But he had a gun,” she says, letting out a long, unsteady breath. “He had a gun.”

  Chapter 21:

  Will

  Will had ended his phone conversation with Marlys without speaking with Holly. She had a fever, didn’t have a good night’s sleep the night before. Holly had been through so much. The burns, the excruciating physical therapy. As Marlys tearfully described the procedure one evening on the telephone, Will found himself needing to sit down.

  “It’s terrible,” Marlys said with a trembling voice. “She has to get into a whirlpool and the water loosens the burned skin and they use this brush to scour it away.”

  “Can I talk to Mom?” P.J. had asked, impatiently tugging at his sleeve. “I want to tell her about number 63 getting out and how Daniel and I got him back in.”

  “Not tonight, P.J.,” Will told him. “Your mom isn’t feeling so good tonight.”

  “But I want to tell her. It would cheer her up,” P.J. said, jumping up and trying to grab the phone from Will.

  “I said no!” Will said more harshly than he meant to. P.J. looked at his grandfather with hurt and confusion and slunk from the room.

  That night Will sat at the kitchen table, his head in hands, and wept at the thought of his daughter having to endure so much pain. He couldn’t help thinking that if their relationship had been better, if he had been more patient, more understanding, Holly would have never left Broken Branch and all of this would have never happened. It was Augie who came into the room and laid a hand on his shoulder. “Is Mom okay?” she asked in a fearful voice.

  The unexpected touch caused Will to flinch and Augie took two steps backward. He hurriedly brushed the tears from his face with the back of his hand. “She’s going to be fine,” Will told Augie brusquely, unable to meet her gaze.

  “Okay,” Augie answered in a small, hesitant voice. Then, as if it took great effort, spoke again. “Are you okay, Grandpa?”

  “I’m fine, fine,” Will brusquely answered, pushing his chair away from the table. “Got to go check on the livestock,” and walked purposely toward the door.

  “Sorry I asked,” Augie spat at his back. “I was trying to be nice. My mistake.”

  “You know, Augie, not every damn thing is about you,” Will said, not even bothering to turn around.

  Now as he sat in his truck watching the frantic parents converging on the school, worried about their children, Will was ashamed. Augie, while stubborn and more often than not unreasonable, had reached out to him, had shown him a kindness that he didn’t have the decency to acknowledge. While neither mentioned the incident again, a renewed distance came between them. Augie, while neither outright rude nor disrespectful, expended as few words as possible on Will. It was as if she decided he wasn’t worth the energy and Will wondered if she wasn’t right on that point.

  He looked at the shotgun on the seat beside him and shook his head in shame. He was acting like a ridiculous old hothead bringing a weapon to a crime scene. Good way to get shot, he thought to himself. The police might not need his help even though he had been a marine lieutenant in Vietnam but once he had a clear vision as to what exactly was going on in the school, he would have plenty of ideas as to how the police should proceed. He wouldn’t have any problem telling them just how it should be done, either.

  Chapter 22:

  Augie

  I’ve never met Beth’s dad. By the time P.J. and I came to Broken Branch, Beth and her mother and sisters had left their farm and had moved into a small house just a few blocks away from school. Beth didn’t talk much about what happened between her mom and dad, but I knew it was pretty intense. One thing I learned very quickly about living in a small town was that the men were just as gossipy as the women, except for my grandpa. Maybe the one good thing about him is he doesn’t talk bad about people. The second day P.J. and I were in Broken Branch, he took us to the gas station where the old farmers met every morning. They all stood around the potato chip display drinking coffee, talking about a man named Ray and a woman named Darlene.

  “I heard she went and got a restraining order,” said an old man with a wrinkled red face and a scaly patch of skin on the tip of his nose. “After all Ray Cragg’s done for her.”

  “Won’t even let him see his own girls,” a man wearing overalls added. They shook their heads like it was the saddest thing they ever heard, but I saw the smile in their eyes. They were just as bad as the eighth-grade girls in my class back in Revelation when they found out that Cleo Gavin was pregnant. And supposedly didn’t know who the father was.

  “Now, now,” my grandpa said. “We don’t know exactly what’s going on. Don’t go making more misery than already’s out there.” All the men looked guiltily down at their dirt-caked shoes and someone started talking about how wet this spring was supposed to get. That was when I knew my grandpa was someone important in Broken Branch, though that didn’t make me like him any more.

  “It can’t be him,” I whisper in Beth’s ear, not knowing if i
t is the truth or not. “Your dad wouldn’t do this.”

  She licks her chapped lips and looks around to see if anyone is listening. “I think he could,” she says sadly. “I think it’s him.”

  Chapter 23:

  Mrs. Oliver

  Mrs. Oliver awaited the man’s response, leaning forward in her seat, scouring his face for any hint that she was correct.

  “Who the hell is Kenny Bingley?” the man asked. “Do you think I was one of your students?” he asked incredulously. “I’m sorry to disappoint you, ma’am, but your involvement here is happenstance. This has absolutely nothing to do with you.”

  Mrs. Oliver slumped unhappily back in her seat, well aware that her sixty-five-year-old rear end had no business in a chair built for a third grader. But now she had two clues as to the identity of the intruder. One, he was most likely not a former student of hers; he seemed genuinely unaffected by that accusation. Two, he was definitely interested in one of the children in the classroom. Over and over he scanned their faces as if looking for someone. Yes, one of the children in this room was the key. This knowledge emboldened her. “Then tell me what you want,” she urged him. “Why in the world do you need to hold a classroom full of eight-year-olds hostage? How can we possibly be a means to your end?”

  The man glanced at his watch. “You’ll see,” he responded, “soon enough, you’ll see.”

  “What if I guess?” Mrs. Oliver asked, suddenly inspired by an idea.

  “Guess what?” the man asked as he absently examined a complicated-looking cell phone. The same model she tried to get Cal to purchase to no avail.

  “If I guess why you are here, will you let the children go? You certainly don’t need eighteen hostages, do you? One should be enough.”